had this larger than life headache last night. i was lying on the floor debating over relief from the headache at the extent of working up my liver with a gram of tylenol, or just letting the headache define the rest of the night.

it was in the middle of this ridiculous and insensible debate when my two year old boy showed up.

he is into turning things on and off. he doesn’t really like watching TV, but the fact that he can turn the box on and off is a big deal for him.

in an instant i sort of forgot my headache. i didn’t know tom’s smile can do that.

tom cruise was yakking about scientology, psychiatry, psychology. “tom cruise: a man with a mission” the show said.

was it the headache or did he really say “psychiatry is not a science, it is a fraud; promoting drug use to treat depression is irresponsible.”

he was very passionate, with the veins on his forehead bulging. he sounded convinced about what he was saying, but on the other hand, he sounded unreal too. it was almost like he was rehearsing a script for an upcoming movie. it reminded me of that movie “magnolia” where he played a disturbed motivational speaker. to me, it was as if he was playing that role, that it was not really him. it was eerie.

unexpectedly, he messed up with my thoughts. when the show was over, the headache got worse.

so, is psychiatry a fraud, and anti-depressants are poison?

you may not have that contradicting effects on my headache, but you are sure welcome to speak up. what do you think?