my jaw literally dropped. then, i uttered the all so common: oh. my. goodness. word for word. then i self righteously declared: “i will NEVER do THAT!”

the boys and i were walking home. on a narrow street, we had to pause to let an suv pass. in the driver’s seat was what looked like the dad, and sitting on his lap was a little girl who looked like 2 or 3 years old. he was driving, but the girl’s hands were on the steering wheel. by the looks of it, she was definitely having a  blast. the guy who was driving looked equally pleased.

he should be ashamed of himself!
what was he thinking?
how stupid!
what a terrible example!

i was endlessly bashing the guy for doing such an unthinkable thing when i realized something.

i did take the kids to the park so they can play, but we did not go home right after their countless stints at the slide. we passed by carl’s jr and they feasted on french fries while i gobbled a whole in your face burger. why? because i, the self proclaimed perfect mother, the best example, the one who will never do the unthinkable, found it easier to shove greasy, fatty food  to my toddler’s and preschooler’s mouths, just so i gan give in to my laziness in preparing a healthy dinner.

for all i know, there was a very good reason he did what he did. and for all i know, he probably never feeds his kids unhealthy foods.

there is so much hypocrisy in my system, it literally makes me sick.
it is difficult to admit it, but there are a lot of times when i am truly beyond disgusting.
this is one of those times.

some things NEVER change.
when will i ever learn to mind only my own business?