a big THANK YOU to all who greeted me on my birthday. you guys make me feel so special! 

i have been off for 5 days, then i work tonight.

that doesn’t sound so bad, except of course, my body was sort of getting used to sleeping at night. for those who have never experienced working at night, you are not missing anything, except of course, the $4/hour night differential.

i have been contemplating going back to day shift, because it is totally cool to sleep when the whole world is asleep, except of course, i still have nightmares of the times i worked days.

when i worked days, i used to go home at night, fall on the living room floor, tired as an abused mule, crying tears of self pity. my muscles ached like i was mauled, and there have been a few times, when i just fell asleep on the floor, unable to drag my hurting feet and legs up to the bedroom.

really, the memories still haunt me like a traumatic past.

anyway, enough of the whining. the past five days off were spent on a daze of things all related to our so called “almost house”. it is on escrow. if the stars align where they are expected to, meaning to say, if our prayers will be answered in a way we expected it to be, we will be inhaling that new house smell in about a week or two.

it is probably a cheap shot at parallelism, but trying to “buy” (the quotes indicating it is actually the lending complany buying it, but hey, in 30 years, it will be fully paid, right?) a new house from the time it was just an empty lot, is almost like being pregnant.

one day, nobody even notices that you are having a baby. then, week after week after week, they see changes, and you get very excited. as it is, as far as moving in is concerned, as compared to being pregnant, we are so ready for the water to break, and extremely excited for that true labor pains. the anxiety of morning sickness is over. those were the days when we were anxious about how the cabinets will look like with the tiles and carpet we picked. now, it’s all about that pleasant and/or scary anticipation. lots of it.

as you can see, there is nothing of substance from this post really. i was just tyring to bore you with details of why at this time, i am widely awake when i’m supposed to be asleep.

sometimes, being excited is so underrated.