i feel like i was separated from my long time lover, and this is the day that we will finally meet again.

after two weeks of being off work, it feels weird to go back tonight. i feel jittery and mixed up. i don’t know if everybody feels the same after a break, or it is just me. maybe it’s just me, and the fact that i am not THAT well in the head.

if i was well, i would have at least spent a day or two relaxing. instead, i was doing everything i planned to do and checking the list in my head like some crazy woman, in exactly two weeks. i was obsessed with making sure the garage was completely clear of boxes. i have accomplished every task and feel like i deserve a big pat on my shoulder, but yeah, i am tired.

whoever said that being crazy is fun is a big fat liar. i know for a fact that our neighbors who even moved in before us still have those boxes in their garage, and i tell you, they all look so fresh and relaxed. me? i have those dark circles around my eyes like i was a raccoon trapped in an old woman’s body. it’s not a pretty sight, but at least my head is clear and i am happy.

there is nothing like a high an OCD sufferer experiences when everything is in place and the house is in order. oh! the joy! that’s why this post is not really a rant, it’s just a thoughtless way to share.

this is so random. it will not get more sensible even if i try to, so i am signing off.