time does fly fast.

three years ago, i started blogging. if i remember correctly, i deleted my very first post. it was a short one, just explaining why i started blogging. i think the reason i deleted it was the fact that it dawned on me that i didn’t have to explain why i’m blogging, because nobody will ever read my blogs anyway. if i am the only one who will read my blog, there was no point in explaining to myself why i was doing it, because i already know why.

anyway, a LOT of things happened since then. at least as far as blogging is concerned.

after a year of blogging, in May of 2006, shane offered to set up and manage my blog with my own domain. i accepted the offer and left blogger.

last year, i seriously thought of closing this blog. the main reason was that i thought i have been saying the same things over and over, and i cannot really keep on repeating myself that long without boring myself or some people who happen to drop by here.

then came the idea of opening a new blog that will give me more freedom to post anything that is unrelated to nursing. i love taking pictures, love making up stories, and love expressing what i think about what other people say. i thought it would be misleading to those who google something about nursing and end up on this site just to see posts of photos i took, read fictional stories, and see commentaries they don’t really care about, or has nothing to do with nursing.

none of that happened. i kept the blog on, i didn’t start a new one.

a couple of weeks ago, a very serious gentleman expressed his interest in buying this site. clueless as to why he would do that i asked shane what that meant. i won’t say i totally grasped the whole concept of buying and selling a website, but i decided not to sell it. he said the offer stands if i happen to change my mind, so i thanked him.

if this blog is a human being, this is a time for a lot of changes. reminded that i started this whole thing as a free couch therapy, i realized that no matter what i write here, whether it offends or inspires others, it will always be for my selfish benefits.

undeniably, i have “met” people through this blog who inspired me and i hope i inspired, but that doesn’t mean that evertyhing i write will please everybody. for a whille that idea sort of bothered me, but i am past that now and i have selfishly decided to just write whatever. this will still be a blog about a nurse, but i will lessen my inhibitions in sharing my interests outside of work. maybe losing a certain amount of inhibition is one sign of growing old. or maybe it’s just giving in to self indulgence. i’m not sure yet.

anyway…

i will start “Friday Fiction”.
on fridays when i feel like it, i will post the made up stories that crowd my head. i won’t mind being told they suck. i won’t feel bad if nobody reads it. i am now beyond my fear that people will think “what arrogance! she thinks she’s a writer? please!” even if people will think that, it won’t bother me anymore. i consciously aware of the fact that i will never be a writer. i have no illusions of being called a writer. i just love making up stories. i will indulge myself.

i will start “Blogosphere Buzz”.
if i can help it, i will stop complaining about how tired i am at work and i will replace whining(because i know it is getting so redundant) by posting a comment about things i read on others’ blogs that caught my attention or stirred my emotion. i will agree, disagree, or stand in between. i won’t get offended if others criticize my opinions. i will not be embarassed if what i think is different or unpopular. i will just indulge myself.

i will eventually start “Photo Pail” and post photos.
eventually. i don’t know when.
seriously, when i learn how to do it.
i tried learning it, and failed a few times, but try and try till you succeed, right? i am not giving up. when i finally figure out how to do it, i will post boring photos. i will never be a professional photographer but that doesn’t mean i can’t pretend i take good pictures. right? i will just indulge myself.

i have updated my blogroll. i deleted those who closed their blogs, those whose last entries were dated before May of 2007, those who, for reasons they never cared to explain, uninvited me from their “for invited readers” only blogs. no hurt feelings for the latter group, i do have an idea why you uninvited me. we can all move on, right? oh, i did’nt delete this one even if her last update was almost three years ago, because she is the only blogger who knows me in person. and, she calls me bridget.

so…for a good three years of finding sense, humor, and everything in between, THANK YOU! that sincere gratitude goes to those who drop by here on purpose, by mistake, through google, and everything else. and of course, lots of thanks go to SHANE. he might have been too busy to update his blog and website these past year or so, but he is always there to help me.

it may sound trite to say that i appreciate the fact that you spend/spent time in reading my thoughts, because i don’t really know you in person, but i honestly do appreciate it. the things you said and will say in your comments and your emails taught and will teach me something.

again, thank you. very much.