there were photos to prove it, but still, i shake my head. in the pictures, she was completely out. she was unarousable, holding a 10 ml syringe with about 2 ml of powdery, whitish fluid remaining, about 4 inches away from her IV access.

the unknown fluid was sent to the lab for identification, and was found to be a combination of dilaudid, benadryl, and phenergan. we didn’t know where she got the dilaudid, because it was not in her list of meds in the hospital. the phenergan and benadryl tablets were her PRN meds.

i’ve always thought that if you crush tablets, dilute and put them in your veins, you will die. i don’t know where i got that stupid idea, but i just did. anyway, she didn’t die, but multiple doses of narcan didn’t wake her up. i had her 2 days after the incident, and only deep sternal rub made her moan a little. i had to pry her eyes open.

of course, we don’t know if she took other narcotic pills PO before she passed out, but we were assuming she did, because a benadryl-dilauid-phenergan tablets pushed through her veins didn’t seem enough to knock her out like that. then again, what do we know? we don’t really see patients melting tablets and shooting them through their veins everyday.

on the third day, she was more awake, but barely. when her eyes were open, they were empty, and stared beyond the empty space. i don’t know exactly what will happen to her. i just know that some people do some sick things, i don’t know now if i will ever be surprised again.